Took the kids to my mom's house today for a couple hours to play. Natalie was home sick. Learned about Krabbes disease and bawled my eyes out watching youtube videos about it. So horrible. Love my babies.

Good Friday

Ate In-N-Out AGAIN! Am feeling sicker and sicker. Of course, a few days ago I thought maybe it wouldn't get any worse. I was kidding myself! My face is also broken out badly. Ah, pregnancy! It always happens to me the same way. At least I know what to expect. Am thinking about the name Layla for a girl. I like it. Took the kiddos to the park with Nick because he got home today at 12:30pm! Sooo nice! :) Dyed easter eggs with Noah, which he loved! He was so cute doing it! The babies are starting to wake up less at night finally, as I think the antibiotics are working. Praise God! Noah actually fell asleep for his nap today and slept from 2:30-4:30. Of course, now he didn't fall asleep until 10pm. That nap is pretty much gone, but he still has rest time everyday for an hour, so that's fine.
Thinking about what Jesus did for me on the cross today. Thank you, Jesus. I didn't deserve to be loved and saved, but you loved and saved me anyway. Help me to love my family with the same love you first loved me with.

Morning sickness...ALL DAY!

It's now hard to think up things to eat. I am having a hard time drinking water, and am worried my milk is gonna dry up! Today I ate a grilled cheese, In-N-Out, and Vinces for dinner. When I think of soemthing that sounds good to eat, I HAVE to eat that, and then I feel better for a little while. Ahh! Pregnancy! Still LOVE it though! Love growing a baby in my belly! :) Micah was so fussy today, and was pulling on his ear. Hopefully they get better soon. :( Even so, they still both were sweet as can be, and so cute. Noah is amazing me. I swear I can tell he turned 3! He is singing all these songs, picking up on all the words really quickly, and he just seem to be more gorwn up over night. He still loves his mommy, and wants to be held, and have me lay down in his bed with him too. I am trying to cherish all those things, I know they won't last forever. I am realizing the time grows shorter.

Now my sweet babies are REALLY 3 and 1

We took the boys to Disneyland on their actual birthday, which was a big mistake! Our passes were blocked, so we had to upgrade them to get in. $160 later we were able to get into an incredibly crowded park. Ug! We totally would have just not gone, but as we started to turn away from the park, Noah says, "Where are we going? Aren't we going to Disneyland?!" We just couldn't disapoint him like that on his birthday. I was about to cry myself because I felt so bad. In the future, we will not tell him we are going somewhere until we are all the way there, and know we can actually get in! Anyway, we went to my parents house afterwards and had spaghetti, and cake, and the boys got to open a few presents from them. That was the best part of the day, not Disneyland. Noah really wanted to just go to Grammy's house anyway! We should have just done that in the first place! The babies really don't like Disneyland because they just want to get down and crawl, not be carted around or held all day! I don't blame them! Anyway, my boys are the sweetest in the whole wide world, and I am so proud of them. I love watching them grow, cannot believe how big they are getting, and cherish every day I get to stay home and be their mommy! I would not choose any other life, and cannot imagine doing anything else!
Today, I took the kids to the Dr. by myself. All 3 of them have colds, but the babies have both spiked a fever, and I suspected ear infections. Sure enough! Both ears on both babies! No wonder they have been waking up screaming at night! Poor things. They both are now on antibiotics. I also finally was able to get the sonogram results: They saw a HEARTBEAT! Our fourth babies heart is beating! What a relief. I was trying to put it out of my mind, but I was a little worried. Apparently I ovulated late...I thought I would be due Nov 12, but it is actually the 21st...right in between my Dad's and Aaron's birthdays, andf Ayden's is on the 24th! Sorry baby, you are gonn a be sharing a birthday, or darn close to it! Also, Thanksgiving is on the 25th! I totally have a feeling it is going to somehow land on one of those days that is already occupied! Well, it doesn't matter...I couldn't be happier to be the momma of four! :)

Birthday party!

The boys first annual joint birthday party was a success! I can't believe it is over. Can't believe my boys are one and three. My heart is so torn about how to feel. Proud of how they are growing and enjoying that, but sad that it is going so fast. I'm gonna miss this, I know. The swing set we got turned out awesome! It isn't all the way finished yet, but Noah loved it! It was so neat seeing his face adn his reaction to it! At the end of the party he asked if the swingset was still going to be there! Hehe! The babies didn't take thier morning nap today, but tehy took the afternoon one, adn now they are already sleeping, as is Noah. He fell asleep at 6:30! He spent the night at Grammy's house last night...went to bed after 10pm and woke up at 5am! Oh my goodness! No wonder he was tired, and then no nap today! Sheesh! He didn't even eat dinner! All the cousins had a blast playing on the swingset too...it is sooo fun for the boys that they have so many cousins slose in age! I love it!

Should have canceled...

I should have canceled the sonogram, but I didn't. They said the sac was measuring 5 weeks, and I think I should be 6 weeks, and they couldn't find a heartbeat at this point. It still may be nothing to worry about, but now I am worrying a bit. I am just trusting God though, and putting that worry on Him. He has control of all things, including this. Most likely they will want to wait 2 weeks and do another sonogram to see if they can then find a heartbeat, and if the baby has grown. SO, we shall see. Nick was pretty upset, moreso than I was. So I am praying for him. The idea that something could be wrong never entered his mind, so he was a bit blind-sided, whereas I was already considering that possibility.

Lazy Day...

Today was a lazy day. I was feeling so tired and just blah! I started feeling what I thought was morning sickness yesterday, but today it was gone. Maybe it was just something else. I just felt really tired and no energy whatsoever. I was just waiting for naptime, and I hate when I feel like that. I want to enjoy every minute, not look forward to naptime. I took a nap when they all did around 2:30, but I almost felt worse when I woke up! Anyway, I have a sonogram on Thursday. I almost just want to cancel until next week, so that in case something is wrong it doesn't ruin the boys birthday. I think I will cancel. Nick and I are both so darn excited to build the swingset! I just cannot wait to see the look on Noah's face! Having it will make me feel less guilty about not being able to go to the park very often! It will be nice to have something fun to play on right in our own backyard!
We went to the library this evening, and Micah let go on what he was holding onto and took a stop into Nick's arms. So, I think it was his first steps pretty much! So exciting, yet bittersweet! My babies are getting so big. I simply cannot fathom that Noah will be three! He actually read me a book today with very little help...of course it is memorized by the pictures, but it is so neat seeing him learn and grow. He is such a smart and loving little boy! Levi was sweet today, and just really want to be held. He is a momma's boy. Well, they all are!!! Love my boys!